Dear Readers,

Last sunday on an innocent night out, I encountered something that must be very common these days. A woman (or girl as the case may be) was wearing a dress that barely covered her ass. While dancing with a gentlemen friend (or horndog) her skirt went up, revealing her fun parts. Whether she was dancing alone or with friends, her fun parts started showing. This was a specific situation, but if you go out downtown on a saturday night and look around you will notice that this mini dress trend is everywhere! It's all well and good to want to be sexy, but is it absolutely necessary to look like strippers? Is less really more? 
At the risk of sounding like a typical middle-aged woman (I'm 22 by the way)  in my day, we wore nice jeans, short shorts or mini dresses with tights underneath and the men still flocked to us... That was enough. So you lack personality? A few drinks later and trust me, you'll be the most charming woman in the bar. Leave showing off your fun parts to the ladies at Barefax...
To the friends of those individuals: I implore you, do the newly implemented Arm Test. If a friend is wearing those Oh-so stripper like dresses, do the Arm Test. Before going, make her raise her hands as far as they can go then make her bend over. If at any time during this test her vaj pokes out, make her put on underwear or change altogether. There is nothing more sobering than seeing that on a night out.

Thank you!

That is what my apartment is right now.
I have water sometimes. Cell phone reception sometimes. A cat that decides he is pissed and pisses on all my shit. A non-existent couch...My couch is now a mattress on the floor because cat piss isn't fun to sit on. Just in case anyone wasn't aware of that. Cat piss=zero fun.
My life is a mess.

Never underestimate the power of ignoring a problem.

So I think I will take the day off tomorrow.

Roomy is leaving this weekend

AHAHAHHAHAHAHA
*does the roomy is leaving dance*

I am feeling ridiculously insecure right now. Kind of wish I hadn't gotten myself into this situation...
It basically fucking sucks.

I was going to post awhile ago but never felt like it, so they saved me a blank page...Thank you LJ.
Here is the blind date:
Went to st hubert. Had awkward dinner conversation. "So it must be easy for you to get a job at work because of your mom" "uuuum What?" "I mean you must never get in trouble right? Others get blamed for your stuff" "uuum....WHAT?!" then I went on a tangent about how that was completely untrue and he just kept saying "Oh yeah I didn't really mean it that way." Great defense buddy..Real creative like. Even after that he decided that it would be prudent to go in for a kiss. I turned it into an awkward hug. Needless to say he will not be getting a second date.
 

I think my cat has made a litterbox out of the back of the christmas tree... Ho hum just another day

That is all.

1. What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?
Moved out

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I can't remember my new years resolution... probably to lose weight, which i haven't done, i have gained..

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? No, but someone close to me got pregnant

4. Did anyone close to you die? Nope


5. What countries did you visit? Shut up!


6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2008?
A clean home, a boyfriend would be nice but not necessary and less debt (is that a something, well its what i want damnit)

7. What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
The day I got my baby Bowser...

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Moving out!

9. What was your biggest failure?
Shopping myself into debt

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
I broke my toe...First time breaking a bone!

11. What was the best thing you bought?
COOOOOUUUCH...And if anyone fucks with it they are out!

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Cindy for excelling at school. I knew she had it in her.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and/or depressed?
Mads. I have no sympathy for her. Aaand my aunt brenda.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Clothes, moving...clothes...

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Moving out and getting my cat.

16. What song will always remind you of 2008?
Almost Lover- A Fine Frenzy


17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

i. happier or sadder?
I'm not happy or sad at the moment, so happier...haha

ii. thinner or fatter?

Fatter? Hard to say, I forget how fat I was then

iii. richer or poorer?

Poorer...waaaay poorer

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Saved..I could have gone back to school had I done that.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Shop, gossip, screwing around

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
with family

22. Did you fall in love in 2008?
Nope

23. How many one-night stands?
4 I believe...does it count as a one night sand if you have slept with them before? Probably.

24. What was your favorite TV program?
See Cindys answer for Jon and Kate haha. Uuum, sadly enough, the Hills. fucking MTV

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Yes.. That is all

26. What was the best book you read?
Um...Holy crap I have no idea. Something Margaret Atwood probably. Although I was really into the Giver and Golden Compass as well...

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Did I discover A fine Frenzy this year? If so, them or Dragonette...

28. What did you want and get?
MY COOOOOUCH

29. What did you want and not get?
A comfortable home.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
Dark Knight.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were ya?
21 aaaand I'm tempted to say Zaphods? I think we stayed here to predrink then zaphods? Must have been a good party :D

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Falling in love, saving up money, less fucking highschool drama!

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?
undecided. went through many phases.

34. What kept you sane?
Bowser, friends, baths and family

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
I don't know...

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Really we voted in a conservative fucking minority again?? Good job canada!

37. Who did you miss?
Missed those who moved away. Didn't miss anyone else though... Seems logical

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Apparently I did not meet many new people in 2008... I would have to say Kristina...She is boss

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008?
Don't comprimise your beliefs because other disagree...Don't lose yourself to bitches in high heel boots. Being a bitch to people can onlyget you so far. The hardest thing is the most rewarding thing Always.



In 2008 did you:
1. Go to a party? Yep
2. Try something new? Yep
3. Has someone change your life? *shrugs*
4. Kiss someone? Yup
5. Tell your family and friends you love them? Yup
6. Buy something extravagant? COUCH FOR FUCK SAKE
7. Done something nice for someone? Team Leader for the GCWCC bitches! Raised shit loads!
8. Do something terribly wrong? probably
9. Move? Down the fucking street chyeah
10. Go to a concert? YES! Ani D.

Best of the Year:
1. Party: Christmas party is always awesome. ...I'm not really a big party person anymore...
2. Show: Hills
3. CD: A fine Frenzy, One Cells in the Sea
4. Movie: Dark Knight
5. Song: Dunno
6. Experience: Moving and getting my kitten Bowser
7. Concert: Ani D
8. Book: Don't know
9. Month: July
10. Day: 20... The day I was born is always the best day
Worst:
1. Party: Keris birthday party, I was bored, felt out of place and didn't care to be there
2. Show: Uuum its new...Bromance...What the shit is that
3. CD: i dunno...britney spears?
4. Movie: Probably anything by Will ferell...I didn't watch them, but I can only assume
5. Song: Beyonce, put a ring on it.  
6. Experience: fighting with friends always sucks.
7. Concert: ...only went to one haha but the opening band sucked cock
8. Book: Edible woman Margaret Atwood. Got half way through the book and it still hadn't gotten interesting
9. Month: December, the month I learned about debt haha
10. Day: I'm sure there were many bad ones

Hopes for 2009:

1. Predict something that you think will happen in 2009? Decorate my home, come out of debt.
2. What do you hope changes about your country? I will say more money for students for cindy and um... MORE TAXES FOR THE RICH BITHES... haha
3. What do you hope for yourself? I hope I am more secure about myself and read more and learn to play guitar...I WILL DO IT DAMNIT
4. What do you hope for your family? Love and peace. Please stop hurting yourselves...
5. What do you hope for your best friends? To be happy in whatever life they choose, even if they have to leave me...
6. What do you hope for the rest of your friends? I hope to replace them with the bitches that fucking moved away haha
7. What is your hope for 2009? To be more and less eventful than 2008

During 2008:
where were you when it began: The casino.
did you stay up: Yup
what was your new year wish? to survive another year
how many girlfriends/boyrfriends: one, but i dated alot
broke up: Yup. It was the best break up yet
have any crushes?: Oh yeah!
care to mention names? I dont thanks
new friends: Not really. Lost a couple though
win anything?  not even a prize at the christmas party...ugh
best place you went to: i need to trvale more in 2009....
worst place you went to: montreal...Im sorry I just hate it
happiest moment: Meh it was a mundane year
how was your birthday: Great!

To fake a smile with the people you don't like and wish them a Merry Christmas. All the while hoping they choke on the stuffing.
To let family grudges be "put to rest for a day" and have a very uncomfortable christmas dinner with those you "love unconditionally." Nothing better than eating turkey with a cokehead....Do they eat?
To buy shitloads of presents and spend an excess of money when you are already in debt...
To be horribly lonely.
The End


ps. I am going to redecorate.... OH LALA

The roomate thing is old and tired. The worst part about it is that I feel the only way I ever get through to him is by manipulation, insults and a generally unpleasant demeanor... I hate being a bitch but it gets results!
I want to move out. Lol of my own appartment...
My love for my cat grows daily...So he scratches me worse than any other cat ever did....I heart him just the same.
I had a problem I am now trying to fix it. I think its working out. Some people you can't rely on. This problem has shown me alot.
I have started to doubt certain friendships...I have started to doubt friendship entirely. I just think friendship is selfish...I can have fun with others, I love other people, I love everyone who I consider my friend... Though I don't think that love is anything near to selfless. I honestly think I can only rely on myself. And right now I am the only person I need... Otherwise, I just because a snivelling little child.
I'm flat broke. I have a program started to help that. It starts with making my lunch instead of buying it , cutting down shopping and actually saving.
Do I think I'm at rock bottom? No, I don't think I even have any concept of what that is.
Right now, life is pretty good! Sure I complain about stuff, but I mean would I be who I am if I didn't haha.
I like the movie Kung Fu Panda, I like the book the golden compass and I have fallen hard for someone who has a girlfriend...Those things are not related. The last part is never never going to happen. I have not mde peace with that. But I will. I will find someone more suited to me who is single... Who knows how long it will take. But it will happen.

Already tired of the roomate. How can problems be solved if he doesn't want to sit down and talk about them....
I'm just frustrated at the moment.

I am an emotional wreck most of the time. Very seldomly do I let rationality interfere with my thought process. I'm trying to work on it, I have gotten marginally better. I have my highschool moments. Today was one of them.
I dont want to say sorry to everyone who has encountered those moments. It would take decades. And quite frankly I dont want to make excuses for who I am. If you are taking the time to fucking speak to me then its your own damn fault. I'm tired of feeling bad because I might cry more than others, or bitch more, or annoy people with these awful little feelings of mine...If you are my friend you are just going to have to deal with it.
Gosh I love my friends, they deserve medals. All of them do. Like not the cheap ones, ones actually made out of gold so that they can pawn them and foronce get something out of the friendship.

Sometimes I feel so happy, thensomething happens, someone says something and its like a crap fest, everything just comes tumbling down.
So I'm not going on a trip. She bailed. Not enough money. Thats fair enough. Maybe I shouldn't depend on others for trips...But I'm just not the type of person who wants to go places alone. I love being alone, but not in a foreign country. 
I'm just so frustrated right now I could scream. I work with douchebags, I'm come home to douchebags and I meet douchebags along the way. I guess I should just be ok with the fact that the world is filled with douchebags and that I am probably one of them.
Thats fine. I can deal... 
Fuck... I can get super high up and be all cloud nine and everything. Then I just come crashing waaaaay down into emo lj oblivion.
bwahbwaaah. 

- I stupidly let my cat in my room. Luckily he only peed on dirty clothes this time...
-Having a roommate isn't as glamourous as I thought it would be... In fact it almost sucks. Not totally yet. But almost. Luckily his girlfriend is doing the dishes for him? As long as its not me today :)
-Money problems kinda suck... Especially since I keep spending
-Whats the deal with dry skin anyhow...What is it trying to prove...


Whats beef? Thats certainly is not beef...

What I don't understand is how stupid, inappropriate, completely unprofessional people can be.
First she sends an incoherent email out to everyone in the building. Thats including managers, deputy directors, directors. It sounded as though she wrote it while drunk. Oh but she got the manager to look at it. Most managers are very french. I could tell she got a french person to help with the french, I could also tell that no english person aside from herelf would have allowed that email to be sent. I also "insulated" her by correcting her email. DUDE! Sound it out at least
Now, I tried to forgive that... I didn't try hard, but I tried to the best of my ability. But fucker strikes again. Sends a reply to someone who bid on me in the auction "dont you have a girlfriend" First of all none of your business...Second of all it is for a work lunch for a half hour. She is done in the campaign I am happy to report.

Then A bitch ass mother fucker today....A fucking tree trunk for arms unproportional, HUGE flat ass, everyone has gotten a ride TWICE whore...
Sorry.
This is what went down:
We had a lunch for the auction today. I made most of the food. Which I didn't do for thanks, I didn't do it for praise. I did it to do a nice thing and so that people would stop bitching about budget issues. I don't care about putting 150 into this campaign hell I will put my next paycheck in if I have to. So I did it. I made sandwiches (4 loafs worht), a tuna pasta salad, i bought humus and pita, I bought a veggie plaater and a fruit platter. Someone else brought chips, someone else brought cookies, drinks. Anyways. We didn't know if all the food would last for both groups so we asked people in the first group not to take second. This Bitch (her name from now on) replies when she finds out we have to ration for the second group "Well they should have come earlier!" Like I was pretty pissed off at this comment, but I let it go. Then when we are walking out with left overs she said something to the effect of "Well, they have leftovers but they wouldn't let us have extra." First of all, it was a huge concern that others wouldn't be able to eat. Second of all, we are giving you FREE food, for doing nothing!!! She didn't fucking bid, she was a bachelorette. She got a picture taken of her and thats it thats all...Like yes I am grateful for everyone who participated. But if they are going to act like HUGE assholes and try to make me feel like shit for trying to do a good thing, fuck em. I would rather they not participate AT ALL. Should I not be abe to bring home the stuff that I bought and I made?? Eat the fruits of my labour. Bitch brought in 10 bucks and she acts like miss queen fucking Bee. Give me a break! I'm so pissed. How can someone be so childish. UGH!!!

And that my friends is my beef.

I'm home from a Lord of the Rings: Extended version Marathon. It was long, and the last movie was very hard to get through... That was probably because of the unwanted visitor that showed up at the beginnin of the movie. If there are two chairs and one sofa, someone is sitting on a chair and another person is lying on the sofa, wouldn't your first instinct be to sit on the other free chair??? Nope, asks me to get up and plops himself right down next to me.  He is a creepy fucking guy. I had to sit very uncomfortably to insure that i was as far away as i could get without being totally rude and getting up to go sit on the other chair (which is what I should have done...I'm just terrible with those situations). so that was unpleasant. And between the growing insanity from watching 12 straight hours of frodo and sams sexual tension issue, and the new and unwanted presence, my sanity has dropped yet again... Just a few more drops and I should be hitting rock bottom soon...We'll see
Apparently someone is moving in tomorrow... Stayed tuned for details

Another day, another username. They change like my moods... Often.. Funny?

I had another infuriating day at the job... Here is something I wanted to say but didn't: FUCK YOU COCKFACE.
Apparently its inappropriate to say to a manager? Not mine (I don't think my mother would appreciate that...)

And so begins another livejournal.
Enjoy!